I could not sleep last night.. I laided in bed tossing and turning.... Looking out my bedroom window at the night sky. I kept thinking it looks like it could snow. The sky was all dark gloomly gray.
Maybe it is just me but I do my best thinking on nights like that.
Everyone else is in the house still... kinda of reminds me of the 'Twas the night before Christmas. When all through the house Not a creature was stirring, not even a mouse.
I often lay in bed at night and do my best talking with God. I pray for family and friends.Give God my two cents on his plan and how I think it is going.( never works out well) Sometimes I almost think I can hear him laughing at my plans. As i chart then in detail out to him. He always brings me back to his word and I( most of the time) throw in the towel and stick with his plan. After all he has been doing this a lot longer then I.
Last night my thoughts were for a few friends who are hurting, lost and alone. I grived for them.Was angry at them for getting to the place in life they are. Then I charted out to God all the things he needed to do to fix them. And then in the darkness of my bedroom where the only thing that was stirring was my Spirit. God showed me something I did not want to see. I came to understand that to me they were broken, off the right path, but to them they were fine.
Can't fix what is not broken? God remined me that he won't fix them until they see their sin and ask for fixen. I am still not sure I like Gods plans. This week I have seen what happens when you lose hope and give up. You have no reason to live.
So for Now Beans view has changed not praying for them to be fixed but praying they will see their broken...